Today was a good day! I say that because I was not so sure it would be. See, a couple of days ago, I had a huge breakdown. I was spent and it took a trigger (dirty kitchen) for me to finally break down…
The issue…I do A LOT! Nothing new, but it is something that I have to work on and the people around me have to support. My mind is always running a mile a minute. It is typically never at rest because I am always managing through what is in front of me, while in another part of my mind, managing what is to come down the road. It is a blessing, sure. It is also a heavy burden. Even when I am sleeping, I am not sure I am truly resting. This is proven on nights when I physically cannot sleep because my mind is full and I am too busy working through the future in my head. On top of the mental tasks, there are all the physical ones…keeping the house clean, keeping the bills paid, ensuring the kids are current on school items, laundry, cooking, etc. Add to that, making sure my mom is happy, has what she needs, and remembers anything important. Oh, y’all remember I started working too, right? The demands of the new gig are so far outside of what I could have imagined I don’t even know if everything is done most days.
#SPENT
Leading up to Mother’s Day, I asked that I not just get a good day…but I get a good days…year…life! I get it. Mother’s Day is a day where I am to be celebrated for all that I do, but in reality, I need those stops to be rolled out each day. Not the accolades, but the act of taking things off of my plate so that I can truly rest. I NEED more than a day to reset this battery if I am going to be the best mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend!
I hope that message was received. I had a wonderful Mother’s Day! I was able to lay around the house most of the day. My mom came over for an Olive Garden dinner. I couldn’t have asked for a better day.
Now…let’s see what happens next…
