December 2, 2020 – The Day the Light Dimmed

Today my mom got a call from the Neuro-Nurse Practitioner. Results finally came in from the more invasive pathologist. Apparently, both pathology reports conflict with one another. The one thing we know for sure, the tumor is an astrocytoma. What is unknown, if the tumor is a grade 2 or grade 3. The NP recommended we get a second opinion since there are conflicting reports on the grade. Wait…wait…WHAT???

I know this feeling. This is the feeling I felt when I first learned my mom had a mass on her brain. This is the pull a rug from under me feeling. My mom is doing her best at keeping it together, but I…I may need a minute. Just when I felt like closure was getting closer, then this.

I now have a new focus and game plan. I must find a second opinion so that my mom can get the care and support she needs and so deserves. I know there are some lessons in all of this…but I can’t see beyond my nose right now, so Lord, please be patient with me.

A repeat MRI is scheduled for Friday and then a Neuro-Oncologist appointment on Monday. So, there will be some answers soon. I just wish I could fix all of this!

Time to pray! #HeGotMe #CuzIAintGotIt